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Disclaimer: I really don’t know what I was thinking when I wrote this. I can’t make sense of it now, but maybe it means something to someone else.

Blind faith is evil, but necessary.
Need is a strong word, want is enough for most.
Or maybe I have it all wrong. And faith is just…
Easier.
And we really do need.

What if there’s reason
for every one and thing.
What if hope is just an excuse.

And what if we really do need.

Making things happen is hard.
Letting things go is hard.
Hard could be the new easy,

if we really did need.

My life is an open book
except the parts that I don’t want you to see.
All of those parts are just for me and for the people who get
too close.

Because not everything I’ve done and not everything I do
Is up to the standards that you would expect out of me
Not every decision I’ve made is perfectly aligned with the way I was raised;
my beautiful education.
You know?
sometimes my choices have made my mother cry
and my friends have pointed their fingers
but even if my GPA doesn’t show it, I’m just a regular guy.
who likes to makes mistakes once in a while.
You see there’ve been plenty of times when I’ve stumbled and fallen
And not all of those times were because I didn’t have a choice
Or because I didn’t know better
It was just a decision I made
Because I didn’t want to be perfect
because

Who wants that?

My life is an open book
Except the parts I don’t want you to see.
Those parts are hidden chapters with thrown away keys
Encrypted in solitude by a code undefined.
I’ll leave them in peace so that one day when I find
them searching for memories,
I’ll learn a lesson or two…
and maybe pass it along into someone else’s book.